Someone Who Has The Biggest Impact On You
Friday, 27 August 2010
Day 7... Laaaate
Dear God, I hope he never reads this blog...
**dies of shame**
Yeah, that boy.
Which, is probably terrible, and wrong, and all things unjust.
But I am sorry to say that that is just the way it is.
This guy is my friend, my best friend, and I love him a bit.
But at the same time I hate him. Because I like him too much. Too much than is necessary.
I hate that his mood influences my mood.
I hate that all it takes is one nice thing... an action...a word... a look...and I am on cloud nine.
I hate that all it takes is one mean thing... an action... a word... a look... and I am lower than low.
I hate that everything I do is for him.
I hate that I would run to him whenever he asked.
I hate that I feel this way for him.
I hate that he cant handle it.
I hate it that when its just the two of us he relaxes and its lovely.
I hate that he panics and closes up like an old dusty book.
I hate that he can be stubborn.
I hate that if we argue he acts like he doesn't care and he can play that for as long as he likes.
I hate that even if we argue I cant be mad at him.
I hate that I want him in my life forever.
I hate that I cant let go.
I hate that even when I feel strong and try to pull away from him he can get me back with just a click of his fingers.
Generally. I love him.
And I just wish everything was easy.