Friday, 27 August 2010

Day 9 ... On time!

Something I have been proud of the past few days...

If you recall ages ago I blogged of my dislike for big cakes here and I believe in the past I have said I will not be making big cakes again... But then my friend Steve Holyoake came about and wanted a big cake for his girlfriend to celebrate their 6 month anniversary. I had seen this and fallen in love with it... So decided to pay homage to The Whisk Kid and recreate.

And after faffing for about 6 hours with swiss meringue buttercream... making enemies with it... whispering obscenities in its ear... I finally got the hang of it and went for it.

And, to be honest, I am proud... and I dont feel sooo bad (only just) about big cakes any more. And this one was rather large.

Check out this bad boy!

Peace x

Day 8... Laaaate...

Ok so ... short term goals this month and whyyyyy.

  1. Continue on Health... Why? To stop being such a fat shit. I started and then I had a mental breakdown and because I have no will power and I am rubbish I ate loads. And I felt guilty but I still couldnt stop. Why is it that even though you know that being such a fat loser is one of the reasons which is making you so depressed and you do realise that if you werent such a fat shit maybe the boy wouldnt be so embarrassed that you still EAT.ALL.THE.FOOD. Im generally disgusting. So yeah to stop eating crap.
  2. To stop smoking. Now I have been very good at that in the past and I am still no way smoking as much as I used to. But I am still having a cheeky few. In my demented brain i think it helps me when I am sad or annoyed or what have you... Im not thick enough to actually think that it does, but at the time is a different matter.
  3. To go on little day trips to places. Work has stopped being so nuts so I am off for the week. I am supposed to be going on little day trips at the start of the week... with Lar... but as I type this she has just text me to say she cant. So what a waste of fucking time this holiday was,
  4. To sort myself out financially. I am rubbish with money and I actually have less than none. Picto is trying to train me to not spend and to budget. He is making me relinquish my debit and credit cards.
  5. To try to let go of the boy. Because it hurts to half have him. How is one supposed to do this when he is your best friend. And how is one to do this when one has the mentality of " I would rather have a little bit than not at all". I really am letting myself down arent i.
  6. Being as I have nowhere to go now... Maybe I will give spring cleaning the house a go. I really want it to be nice and at the moment. Its like a frickin hovel.

I cant think of any more goals as of yet...

Cheers beers. xx

Day 7... Laaaate

Someone Who Has The Biggest Impact On You

Dear God, I hope he never reads this blog...
**dies of shame**

Yeah, that boy.

Which, is probably terrible, and wrong, and all things unjust.

But I am sorry to say that that is just the way it is.

This guy is my friend, my best friend, and I love him a bit.

But at the same time I hate him. Because I like him too much. Too much than is necessary.

I hate that his mood influences my mood.

I hate that all it takes is one nice thing... an action...a word... a look...and I am on cloud nine.

I hate that all it takes is one mean thing... an action... a word... a look... and I am lower than low.

I hate that everything I do is for him.

I hate that I would run to him whenever he asked.

I hate that I feel this way for him.

I hate that he cant handle it.

I hate it that when its just the two of us he relaxes and its lovely.

I hate that he panics and closes up like an old dusty book.

I hate that he can be stubborn.

I hate that if we argue he acts like he doesn't care and he can play that for as long as he likes.

I hate that even if we argue I cant be mad at him.

I hate that I want him in my life forever.

I hate that I cant let go.

I hate that even when I feel strong and try to pull away from him he can get me back with just a click of his fingers.

Generally. I love him.

And I just wish everything was easy.

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

Day 6...

Favourite Superhero and why...

I really ♥ The Thing...

I love him because I feel a bit sorry for him. He doesn't want to be made of rocks.

Monday, 23 August 2010

Cookie Monster Cupcakes

Happy Birthday Helen

New Baby in the Family - Baby Carter

Happy Birthday DJ

Everton Football Club Cupcakes

Cherry Cupcakes

Baby Cakes...

Mini cupcakes for a 5-year olds birthday party

Day 5... And we're back on track!!

Somewhere I have been...

Who can tell I have learnt how to embed videos... hmmmm

Day 4... Late...


I am a smokey Joe. Well here and there but still... its shit and my lungs will collapse and I will die.

Also I am rubbish at moisturising. I go through phases where I do it all the time and I am all peachy... then I forget or something and I am as dry as a bone.


Day 3 ... late...

Evening Readers,
So its the day where I show a photo of me and my friends... Well it is so hard to choose just one especially as I have so many good friends all of which come and go in different groups and stuff so I saw other people putting a few pics up and I felt like that gave me a green light to do the same!

I hope you likey like... It was really lovely to look through a load of old pics... good for the soul.

I look different in all the pictures hahah. Youll never guess who I am haaa xxx

Top to Bottom...L-R:
Me & Em: Boy, Me, Kam & Darran: Kam & Me: Me & Boy: Irish Mancunian, Picto & Me:
Us Girls: Reuben, Cary, Katy & Me: Homemade boardgames shenanigans:
Alan, Sinead, Laura, Picto, Boy & Me: Girls, Matthew Bateman & Mike Cider:
Lar, Boy, Me & Picto: Zoddy, Katy, Lar & Me: Zoddy, Katy, Lauren, Lar, Briar, Me, Preya & Shivi:
Me & James: Me & Spark.


Well.... look. I haven't done day 3 or 4! Rubbish. I promise I will do a big fat post later with 3,4 & 5 on it.

Sorry!! Its been a busy weekend! Will update y'all later xx

Friday, 20 August 2010

Day 2...

Good morning loyal blog followers of joy...

Day 2... The meaning behind my blog name.

I would like to take this time to describe and discuss what my blog name really means because I wouldnt want you to be left in the dark...

My blog name means I am Bitsy and I make cupcakes. I display them, in picture form, here. Hence... Bitsy's Cupcakery.

Does that come across as sarcastic?

I am in one of those moods.

If you are doing this 30 days things comment and let me know so I can follow and learn all about y'all. xxx

ps. Cupcake pictures to come soon. Sorry its been ages. I am slack... I am sure if you carry on following this 30 days thing at some point it will all come out in a giant flood of sadness and rage and you will understand why I have been so lame.


Day 1...

Ok... 15 interesting facts...

1. I am so embarrassed to have uploaded that photo... I am terribly self conscious and hate my teeth.

2. I used to own a horse. (oh these arent interesting at all are they)

3. My dad was a roadie with bands... He was offered a 12 month tour with AC/DC but my mom said if he went he may as well not come back... (thats not even about me...)

4. I would give anything to be able to speak french fluently... any language... the fact that it takes time is not good enough for me.

5. I used to sing and play bass in a band.

6. I have a secret love for "urban" music.

7. I cannot for the life of me walk in heels yet I have about 50 pairs. I sometimes buy them because they are pretty and would look good on display...shhhhh!

8. I am a pretty independent person but when I am hungover I get all cuddly and like to be with someone I can cosy up with.

9. Im a winter baby and love nothing more than snow, frosts, open fires, christmas that kind of thing.

10. I love movies I have about 600 DVDs but I rarely watch one all the way through if I am by myself. Mostly I nod off.

12. I can whip up pretty nifty fancy dress costumes... of late I have been... A lion, Cheetara from Thundercats, The black Smoke from Lost and Chun-Li from Streetfighter.

13. My hair is naturally GINGER. Pretty curly. And massive. You should see the Lion dress up pictures. I backcombed it into an afro to make a mane.

14. I love Andrew McCarthy (of St Elmos Fire/Pretty in Pink fame) and would have married him had he of not aged.

15. I fed a hedgehog cheese once.
Well there you go... enlightened? Didnt think so...

I did a thing like this on Facebook once... I think it was slightly more interesting... I gave it a bit more thought... Maybe I should have pasted it in... Oh well.

Thanks for your ears. x

Thursday, 19 August 2010

30 Days of Me

So this lovely lady, Kellie from Get The Words Out is doing this blog thing where you have something to do each day... if you get me. I am having a right shit time of it right now. I feel sad even looking at this blog because I used it to write down a lot of happy memories I had that I feel all crushed and crappy about right now and I am just not feeling writing or updating or anything... but I have been having a read of everyones stuff and I noticed this and thought maybe it would help me out a bit... So this is what happens...

Each day there is a thing I have to write about (see below) it may make things more interesting over here as its not at the moment...

Here are the daily prompts for 30 days of me:
day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind you blog name
day 3- a picture of you and your friends
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere youve been to
day 6- favorite super hero and why
day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why
day 9- something youre proud of in the past few days
day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
day 11- another picture of you and your friends
day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one
day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently
day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
day 16- another picture of yourself
day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them
day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future
day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy
day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave for a lot
day 24- a letter to your parents
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- what do you think about your friends
day 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge
day 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
day 29- in this past month, what have you learned
day 30- you favorite song

I hope you dont get too bored and you dont think Im a total dick haha.

Sorry guys.

Wednesday, 4 August 2010

Some Little Cupcake Cuties

I made these pretties for my lovely Rachel at work...

Guinness Chocolate Cake WITH Choc Chips.

They were for her mom to take into work on her birthday.

Thats cute.

90th Birthday Cupcakes

Remember Anna & Dave who I did my first wedding cupcakes for???

Well they LOVE the cakes! And so do their families!!

So when it was Anna's grandma's 90th birthday Anna asked me for some gorgeous fresh lemon cupcakes with pretty silver and white decoration...

Ta Daaaa!

Align Centre

Wanna see some cupcakes??!?

Bitsy's Cupcakery has been busy like a bumble bee. Here's to keeping busy to try not to think about people being asssssshoooolllleeesss.

Is it artists that make better art through being tortured souls? Maybe thats me. HA.

But I think I did a good job.

Another random order from Facebook. Sweeet.

Chun-Li plus a Lemming take on the town...

Tuesday, 3 August 2010

This Weekend...

Was lovely...

From Thursday onwards...

Thursday I had half day so went to meet the boy for lunch. Nandos... And this time I had quarter chicken with mashed potato and macho peas (which, for those that don't know, are peas mixed with some mashed up peas with like chili and stuff all up in there... they do have quite a kick... but are LUSH)

Then we went shopping for birthday fancy dress outfits and birthday prezzies as it was Picto and Darrans birthday. I got tired of shopping before he did and begged to go to the pub... I think he was secretly uber glad...

Went to the pub, met Picto and John had some laughs and then walked back to the boys house where he tried on his outfit... Fancy dress for Pictos birthday was computer game characters... he was Guybrush Threepwood from Monkey Island and he looked HOT. I don't know what it was about that costume... but I was smitten hahah.

Then randomly went to Nottingham where the boys all played football.

Friday Darrans birthday. Was cool because we all went to his and his Xbox is now fixed! YAY!! So we played rockband and some tony hawks skate game where you actually stand on a skateboard... I felt like a dick because I have no balance but I did better than a dead cow. Which is something to be proud of surely? But then again, I have never seen a dead cow play tony hawks skate game haha.

Gave him a tonne of boardgames for his birthday. All from charity shops like but awesome. The boy also got him the neighbours boardgame which we found. Darran had apparently played this before when he was a kid and was already a fan so that was good.

Then Saturday came and I was hungover and still had to make a costume to make me look like a convincing Chun-Li from Streetfighter. I was in no way in the mood. I went to the boys house to get ready in the afternoon and just sat down and cried, partly because I was hungover and pathetic partly because in my rush to bring all my things over I forgot the essential safety pins I was gonna pin my costume together with because I couldn't be arsed to sew it.

The boy was mostly awesome and amazing and gave me lots of cuddles. Disappeared and brought me up diet coke and chocolate biscuits and I thought nothing could get better... Then he put his costume on and that was that.

The evening was fun. Apparently people knew who I was. Some lad came over to me in Mosh and said...
Him: Are you dressed as Chun-Li?
Me: Yes
Him: Let me see your thighs.
Me: *shocked face*

This boy looked about 15. I am 27. Really. Hahaha. Secretly thought it was a bit cool. hahah.

Lar dressed as a lemming. She looked so cool with green hair it was so funny.

Then went home, put candles on and cuddled the boy loads... candles and drunk people shouldn't be allowed haha.

Sunday was lazy. I felt like shit and just chilled on the boys sofa til late.

But then I went home.

I said to Lar... I felt like I had been on holiday, it was that nice a weekend with the boy, and that I dreaded Monday because everything would go back to normal. I wouldn't see him. He wouldn't text. And if he did he would be cold and mean. I hoped hoped hoped that wouldn't happen. In the bottom of my heart I always have hope that he will continue to be the awesome person I know he is... but he didn't.